How can one post

How can one post on the blog if your partner is always using it..... That's right, since Jo starting playing a virtual horse game where you have to look after it and do everything for it I can not seem to get a look in edge ways. But I love her and its good that she is so engrossed into something other than work. I on the other hand have ventured up north yet again and I was due to come back after 5 days, but my father was screwed because his car had died a death and at is age I felt it was a lot easier if I helped him out. So I stayed a couple of extra days. I checked the net out and short listed some cars for him and he opted for a diesel Jag on a 55 plate with just 85k miles on the clock and all for £3k bar £25! I helped out with the cash as well with a loan for a grand. I felt it was worth paying a little bit extra and picking something up that wasn't going to fall to bits inside 2 years which is what seems to happen to his cars. He's been into Mondeo's for years so it was nice he went for the Jag. We agreed the price and agreed the deal but he had to slap a 12 month MOT on it, since the old one only had 6 weeks left. I then left and went back home, all sorted..... NOT. The car failed the MOT on emissions and for some reason unknown to me because my brother ja is now sorting it out because father refuses to have a phone, so he's the inbetween, father still has not got the car a week after I left. It all should be good but you know don't you, if you leave something before its finished its going to fuck up..... Anyways it was nice to be able to do something for dad who is quite stubborn, but its always great to get back home. But once the weekend had gone which infact was topped off with a very nice meal in Boxhill near Dorking on the Saturday night it was back to work for Jo and it killed me. The depression was real bad, and what happens when I get really bad with depression..... I hit the slots. Not with anyone's money but my own, well I say my own its infact my poker bankroll, and after some pretty heavy losses I know I have to do something about it, and prove to myself that I do not have a problem to the extent I can over come the urge ok with a little help, and that help involved moving my poker bankroll onto just one poker site which already has the casino and games on the site banned from me using it, and the reason I chose that site was because if I felt the urge and wanted to play any casino games I have to wait for the withdrawal to go through which takes 3 days, and not like some sites which is instant. So it's my way of dealing with the problem, but its so much a comfort thing when I dying of depression it is hard. But overall with my Jesus challenge, rake-back funds and small bits on various sites ( not enough to warrant me using it for the casino knowing that once its gone from there I can not play on that site again ) stands at roughly $8k. I want to use that now for my platform and start working towards building it up and using some funds to maintain my lifestyle so essential going pro at poker. The good thing is I have found some games that profitable, I have found some games that help with my VIP levels on other poker sites, and thus helps me with my rake-back deals. I can even afford to be a losing player or break even player and still make a decent ( wage ) with the deals and points I collect over time. But gone are the days when I just use to nit up and play so tight that everybody on the table would instantly fold if I played a hand. It is now me who is the aggressor these days, but that comes at a price, and the price it comes at is the variance of the games I play, ie hyper turbo HU STT and Zoom & rush cash games 6 max. But also the cap games on Stars. I played enough in just 5 days since my return from up north to maintain my VIP level on stars, and also make the highest VIP level in a week on OnGame which allows me into a free-roll which normally gets 15 runners max and with x3 $525 tourney tickets up for grabs kind of makes it a good deal. Even by lack of skill and pure luck I'm sure I can manage two if I play it every week until the end of the year, and by doing that I will of made it 5 yrs running that I have won more than $1k in free-roll winnings in a Calendar year, which is kind of impressive I think you might agree. So I have some ground plans and since the last update my luck seems to have improved, well I was running worse than I had for a while, so it wasn't that hard to run better. I just hope I can keep my head clear. It is a struggle even over the last week like you have read, but still managed to put the poker together and well, you've just read it, so I know I have got it. I also want to try and play a few more tournaments than I have been doing, but that isn't quite so easy. I'm getting tired very easy and the back has been playing up with too much sitting than normal, but I shall see. I think that's enough for the time being, and will update again soon.