Back to the land of the normal

Although still only a day since the last post, I do have loads to write and generally get it off my chest so to speak, so will be updates hopefully on a more regular basis. The flight home was delayed by an hr, so Jo was not imporessed cos she was working the next day, and by the time I got out of the airport it was past midnight. But chuffed again to see her and grateful she did come and get me. I could not find anything to buy her in Vienna, so made a great attempt to make a good meal for when she came home from work. I hate Liver, but Jo and the cats loved it. So I was in the good books !!!! However, I was asked if I would like to make the numbers up in the forum game of PokerPlayersPlace. A 4 man team game, and I had pre Vienna said I would, so I was a bit gutted they remembered and reminded me and hour to go. Although it was a team game I still managed to play some pretty good stuff with some good lay downs, and tried to help out a team member when I could. But during the game I just lost the plot with my fella members of the forum. I have been disgruntled with the way the forum had been going in recent times, and took some time out of the forum life last year to try and get back to what it use to be. It was decided to let in another 2 members into the Committee team, and I didnt agree with one guy. Basically he bought his way into the committee with money for this and money for that, and I just hate people like that. But no-one else could see it and say's hes a good man and all that. But meh I had to accept it cos I was out voted and he was in. At first, yes everything was good, but then I noticed I was starting to get ignored, and I told my mate and he said I was paranoid, so left it. But it was quite obvious he was blnaking me. He didn't know about pre votes and all that, so unless someone told him or not I dont know. But he started being a little Hilter as well, and it just wound me up, with his CAP LETTERS WHEN HE WANTED TO MAKE A POINT, and starting to boss his way with this needs to be done and at this time, but of course no-one else would pick this up cos they all love him for the donations he makes. Well I'm sorry, money doesnt buy you proper friends. But like I said no-one is picking it up. Also another person who has been blanking me for ages, also continues to do so, and again it got on my tits. So that was two of the people who are suppose to be a team off my Christmas list. Another member of the committee is so disrespectful to his wife it makes me boil with anger. So thinks he's the dogs Bollox, when infact self praise no recommendation springs to mind. But again everyone just laughs at is jokes and all is good. He's getting worse with time so god help us all...... On top of that, the forum I use to love is just being over run with pricks that continue to kick up a fuss all the time over anything that is posted. If it was suggested we played a game on say Tuesday, they would hit off and say why cant it be Wednesday. I'm sure its being done on purpose, because its time after time day after day. I had a run in with one of the members, and they thought just because I was on the committee I could not or would not say anything. But I didn't back down and then all of a sudden the forum is up in arms about it all. Ok that was sorted, so what does he do, he starts on something or somebody else. I tell ya its a joke. But I been here for like 7 years and know the people who have stuck around since the start, and are classed as close friends. Which is why I don't just leave.... My head is screwed up at the moment, and mum's death is really hurting and killing me. The drugs I take for my back dont help and the depression on top along with looking afer my Gran and now special needs brother is getting too much for me, but there is no help for me. My gran doesn't trust anyone apart from me, and with mum dying so sudden thats kicked up all sorts of problems and John still needs looking after. Yes I could get someone else in, but I think its too soon yet. He's grieving as well, and he needs his brothers close to help him to. So tonight I just lost the plot while playing this game. I see all the chats in the chatbox and snapped and just fired out all kinds of shit. It's ended up with me being Heads up v another one I had a pop at, but only after calling me in skype cos he thought I was not watching, so I snapped back. Anyways he sat out so I sat out cos I wanted to win fair and square. Well after 90 mins he just returned to finish off the game, of course after telling everyone an hour ago he was going to bed..... But I was on the ball and sat back in straight away, and won the game fair and square like I wanted to. Thats the kind of deception I'm up against. Maybe it is time to go, maybe its because of the death of my mum thats causing me to be this way. Maybe its everything on top of more shit that I just cant help feeling like this. Or maybe it is what I think it is and all the above is true and its only me who's got the balls to say anything....... Time will tell I'm sure. Apart from the forum game I havent really played any poker today. 20 hands if that for a small profit of €15. but the $66.60 for the forum win helps to. I also had an email telling me about the WPT Mag letter I sent in after winning the freeroll and the i-pad, letting me know thats its going to be printed and they give me £10 into my poker account..... All helps ya know.